Transforming Our Fear Into Love

During my meditation today, I had an amazing experience. I have been working on understanding and developing deeper levels of love within my being. I have often read about how fear blocks us from accessing our higher self and our own consciousness. So, if fear is the opposite of love, it makes sense how it is our #1 obstacle in ascending to higher levels. We can only ascend to the higher levels by removing the fear and replacing it with love. Love is the vibration of the higher realms and in my opinion, the most important thing we can be working on in this life time.

But love is a big generic thing that means lots of things to lots of people. There are many emotions/concepts that could be considered sub categories of love. Empathy, Service, Kindness, Happiness, Joy, Gratitude, etc. all stem from Love, in one way or another. Likewise, there are many emotions/concepts that stem from fear… Jealousy, Pride, Selfishness and many specific types of fear such as fear of failure, fear of commitment in a relationship, fear of airplanes, fear of driving, fear of being alone, fear of spiders, etc. The list could go on and on.

About 2 months ago, I attended a conference at Eceti Ranch. One of the speakers, Inelia Benz was asked the question, What is the most important thing that we can do to prepare for ascension? Her answer was simple: “Process Your Fears.” This is not a new concept. I’ve known this for a long time and I agree with it. But there is a difference between knowing this concept and actually digging in and doing it. Its not easy to face your fears and its not comfortable. It involves a restructuring of the way you think and of releasing something that has been controlling your life and progression in one way or another for probably a very long time. Why do we want to run away from our fears instead of facing those that are controlling us? Its because its hard work and things that cause fear make us want to run to safety. So when we run away from it, we think we are going to safety through avoidance. But the truth is that we only give more power to the fear that is controlling us.

I’d like to share an experience I had today, within the last few hours (I want to get it all down while its still fresh! :). As I was doing my meditation and after I had gotten into a very relaxed state, I asked my higher self to show me what I needed to do to accelerate the embodiment of love throughout my being. The answer I got was to work on a specific fear. (Please note that the realization that I needed to work on some specific aspect of fear was an important part of this. Working on fear as a general concept would not work quite the same). Then as I asked about which fear to work on, I felt that I should go with the one related to money. (A little background about this, the last few weeks, I’ve noticed myself struggling more with money than I have been over the past 9 months or so. But the struggle for money is something I have dealt with in the past and in circumstances that were more difficult. Being an entrepreneur is not easy, but I have developed some valuable skills related to my business. I have many successful endeavors and the demand in the market place for my services is quite high. So, the potential to make it big is completely within the realm of possibilities. Yet, it seems like the big deals that could have gone through over the years seemed to fall through and despite my best attempts, things have kind of just kept trucking along, with either just enough to get by or even less than that. Its like there was an imaginary invisible barrier that has prevented me from going beyond just making it and scraping by with the skin of my teeth.)

So as I proceeded further into my meditation, I decided to confront this so called fear of not making enough money and in my mind I commanded the following “Show Yourself!”. As I watched in my mind’s eye, I saw a grey-like cloud develop in front of me and as I looked at it, I could see that it got darker and darker as it got closer to the center. It was almost like there was a pitch black apple seed of sorts that was buried right in the middle of it. But something else amazing happened. As it presented itself to me, there was a sudden realization that what I was looking at was not “The fear of making enough money”… It Was The Fear Of Making “Too Much” Money! It was literally one of those moments when the light turned on and I could truly see what was holding me back. Tears came to my eyes as I knew in that moment what I had just experienced. I felt like I just stumbled upon the Holy Grail of knowledge! I quickly started to think about my life and money and saw clearly that I had the abilities, the talent, the skills to make money! That was not the problem! Nor was the fear of money! Nor was the fear of making enough money! What became clear to me in that moment was that I was a little off in what I was dealing with. I also saw that this imaginary invisible barrier was not imaginary. It was real and it was trying to protect me. Huh??? Protect me from what? Well, I also received that in one or more of my past lives, I had experienced a life where I possessed too much money (probably in the capacity of a banker) and that had resulted in me doing & being a type of person that I was not pleased with. I was probably selfish, unkind & arrogant and hurt other people in the process. The regret and despair I felt was carried over from a previous life was the result of too much money, in my opinion. It was like I had an engrained belief that “Too Much Money Will Ruin Me”. Perhaps there were other beliefs that were passed to me from my parents and other previous experiences in this life. But I knew the belief and fear was somehow connected to a previous life AND IT WAS STILL AFFECTING ME IN THIS LIFE!

It made me realize the following: “How can we truly solve a problem within our lives if we don’t even know what the problem is?”

Too many times, we look at a problem (such as not making enough money) and we think that the underlying cause is that we just need to work harder or find a better job, a better business, or something else that is more superficial in nature. I’m not saying that those things are not the actual cause. Maybe they are for you. But for me, in my experience, there was something deeper that needed to be addressed and the miracle was that I discovered it (but the truth is that I think I’ve always known)… but it just became ever so clear to me. In fact, as I think about it, I can remember so many times when I’ve been presented with an opportunity that I knew would change everything. I’m talking about big deals with clients, partners or service providers that would have made me a very wealthy person. But things just fell through. It was like as I started approaching that invisible threshold, the “Too Much Money Will Ruin You” belief system kicked in and undermined the whole thing.

Now, let’s get back to the issue of It was trying to protect me. While there are certainly many cases where money does contribute greatly to ruining someone, is it always the case? Absolutely not. There are many great wealthy people who have plenty of money and seem to do just fine. It does not ruin everybody. Would it ruin me in this life time? I’d like to think that it wouldn’t, but I will acknowledge that I believe it probably did in the past. So I can see why a false belief system based on an actual past experience would have affected me through my life (up till now).

What to Do

Just knowing what you’re up against really is half the battle. What I realized that was so amazing to me is that I was so close to the issue, yet I wasn’t going at it directly. I was getting close, but for some reason, I wasn’t seeing the whole picture. I do now. So as I looked at this grey cloud, I decided to start sending it my love. I said over and over in my mind, “I love you” “I love you” “I love you”. I felt appreciation for this thing or entity… whatever it was… until I saw it dissolve and disappear into the light. The grey like edges would melt away first and it got smaller and smaller. As it got to the point where just the black seed was left, again I commanded, “Show yourself” I wanted to know what the dark spot represented. And in that moment, I knew it was a particular traumatic experience that had happened in that lifetime that was the catalyst for most all of this. I also knew that for me, it wasn’t important to know the exact details of what happened at this time, but to know that there was a significant experience. So released it. I thanked it. I loved it and like the rest of the grey cloud, I saw it disappear and be transformed into the light. I felt peace in that moment. I held no hard feelings towards others nor the entity thing I saw. I was actually thankful for it. I could see how it has benefited me and helped me learn valuable lessons in this lifetime.

Then I thought about the concern of the entity that having too much money would ruin me. What if I became a billionaire or even a trillionaire? My conscious mind was trying to figure out what would happen if I did become a trillionaire (extreme example, I know). In other words, would it ruin me? As I asked myself the question, I knew automatically that it would. If I had a trillion dollars and there were still people living in poverty in this world, then I would consider myself a bad person for having so much while others had so little. Sure I could donate a few trillion, but I still wouldn’t be satisfied because I can’t think of any reason why I would need even 1 trillion.

Based on that example, I felt I still had to have a limit, even if it was less than a trillion. It was like I was an attorney in the court room arguing the case on behalf of the side of me that wanted to stop “just getting by”. I wanted to experience life with less stress, more abundance, more vacations & more than enough money to do what I wanted to do. Then on the other side of the courtroom was this entity saying that I needed a limit. Otherwise, I would ruin myself. But the idea of setting a tangible limit seemed ridiculous to me. Should abundance be limited? Does God have a limit? So, I could certainly see both sides of the coin here.

Then, I had an idea. The side of me that wanted to stop the “just getting by” nonsense called over the other side. “How about we negotiate?” I said. I really don’t believe that you imposing a limit on me means that I need to struggle. How does that serve people I owe money to? How about my family? What is wrong with experiencing life without the stress? I understand your point of view and you understand mine. So here is what I am willing to offer: “How about we let our Higher Self/God decide what that limit is?” You & I release the need for any kind of limit but allow me full freedom in experiencing abundance in wonderful and amazing ways so I never again have to experience the feeling of just barely making it (or not making it). We both know that our Higher Self knows what is best and He will allow me to increase in prosperity significantly while at the same time help me develop my character to the point where too much money would have any bearing on the character of who I choose to be. Our Higher Self knows best and will help me to have the right balance for my own particular path. So, in that case, will you release the limit? Absolutely was the answer.

After the agreement, I visualized a direct connection from God/Higher Self (within me) to my level of abundance that replaced the entities control that kept me in struggle financially. I was free. I knew that connecting directly to God in this situation was much more healthy than having a false entity belief system do the job. I had to resolve in my mind the contradictory nature of the 2 sides, which finally came together to allow greater abundance in my life.

What that abundance is and will be, I don’t know exactly. I am leaving that up to God/Higher Self (within me), but I do know that the channels of prosperity are open now. We all have a right to that abundance and it doesn’t have to affect us in a negative way!

Living Within the Flow

The No Pain, No Gain Paradigm

Engrained within the consciousness of mankind for many thousands of years has existed a belief paradigm that could be summarized with a common slogan known to many as: “No pain, no gain”. The idea behind it is that your sheer will and tremendous effort and struggle will give you the rewards you seek. This belief system is embedded within sports, educational systems, religion, politics, business and many other organizations.

As you dissect this particular thought form, you’ll find that it is built on a 3rd dimensional framework of duality. In other words, there is a level of opposition (or limitations) that must be encountered if you are to achieve your desired results. For example, an Olympic Athlete must exert tremendous effort, pushing his/her body to its limits and going through intense mental discipline in order to go faster, jump higher & endure more than the average person can do. This idea of struggle is almost perceived with a form of reverence. Even nations participate in this as one country goes to war to punish another country for its policies or wrongdoings (or to exercise its influence by trying to control another group of people). This paradigm promotes the agenda that there is always a winner and loser. Or from a religious point of view, a Heaven and a Hell or the good people and the bad people.

Here on Earth, there is no doubt that we have all experienced opposition in one form or another. Opposition can occur in the form of our own physical/mental limitations or it can appear in the form of other people who set up barriers to achieving your desired outcome. People who endure the struggle and end up ‘winning’ are considered successes. Yet for all of those who struggle and win, there are many more who struggle and fail, struggle and fail, struggle and fail, etc. These are the vicious cycles of self-defeat that keep us locked into duality consciousness and believing that we are less than what we truly are: Children of God. In addition, this vicious cycle engrains within us the idea that the only way to succeed is to push harder, study more, endure more pain, etc so that you can arrive at your intended destination.

Living in a world of duality is not a natural state of being. It is an artificial construct designed to teach us the lessons of separation. Through this experience, we learn many lessons that accelerate our spiritual growth. Every experience, whether good or bad contributes to our learning, joy and development throughout the eternities.

However, we live in a unique time of history. The world of duality is leaving and the world of oneness is coming. This transition does not happen overnight, but it has already started and many of us are currently experiencing symptoms of both worlds while going through this transition. We still feel the struggle associated with money, relationships, health, etc but yet we are waking up and seeing through the illusions that we have been placed under.

How the Synchronicities of Life Help Us to Live in the Flow

Within the higher dimensions, duality consciousness leaves and we no longer succumb to the artificial thought forms of the “No Pain, No Gain” mentality as well as the winner/loser, good/bad, light/dark belief systems. Removing the opposition from our lives frees up the flow of the universe as it interacts with our consciousness. For example, in the 3D world, lets say you have an idea of bringing an elephant into your backyard. Well, you are going to face some obstacles to accomplishing that. First, you will have to get a permit to be able to do so. Most likely, your house is not in a zone where having an elephant would be permissible, but even if it is, you will then have to figure out where to get the elephant, how to purchase it and then how to transport it to your backyard. Even if you succeed, you might encounter lots of issues with damage to your house and to other little pets in the neighborhood, not to mention the costs of feeding your large friend. ☺

In the 5th dimension, you make the intention of having a well-mannered elephant in your backyard and then it instantly appears because the limitations and opposing forces have been dissolved. There are no opposing forces to you manifesting the elephant. As Earth goes through this transition, what happens is that the speed of manifestation increases. Perhaps things that normally would take a longer period of time start happening faster, until at some point in the future, we will experience instantaneous manifestations for things that would have taken much more time previously.

Seeing the Synchronicities or Coincidences in life are simply ways in which we are being shown the Hand of God in our lives. They are indications that we are part of the Oneness and that the illusion of separation/duality consciousness is leaving. There is no such thing as a coincidence because when we become one with All That Is, then instead of having opposing forces keeping you from your intended outcome, you have ‘helping’ forces who want you to experience what you consciously and unconsciously desire.

An important point here has to do with our level of awareness. At this point, we are not yet able to comprehend all of our realities and existences as multi-dimensional beings. We think we know something, but we really only catch a tiny sliver of the information that is available. The more we grow spiritually, the more we start to see how much there is that we don’t know or comprehend. So our perception of what we think we want might be different from what our Higher Self sees that we want. The Higher Self knows more than what we know with our limited conscious mind. So, being able to release our ego and open up our awareness to another outcome or another way of getting to the same outcome is very important as we learn to live within the flow.

Have you ever had a time where things just seemed to click? Or where the path for you to accomplish your goal just fell into place as you went through the various steps that led you to your ultimate destination? This is what it is like to live within the flow. Sure, you still have to take action (at least for now), but so many times that action is easy, quick and you find yourself enjoying the process.

Any time you experience resistance to a particular path you are following, you are not living within the flow in that situation. Either your ego is pushing you in a direction that is not for your highest good or you have limitations/belief systems that are manifesting the opposition you are experiencing.

The first step to being able to live within the flow is to release your ego and to be okay with where you are right now. You most likely have issues you are ‘fighting against’. We all do. But understanding the role of duality consciousness and how it serves you and then realizing that the time we are living in is facilitating our abilities to live within the flow allows us to bless and release the opposition as we go with the flow and ask our Higher Self, “Now what is the best thing to do?”.

Mentally fighting and struggling with the undesirable situation only keeps you in the situation. When you are fighting against something or someone, you are locked in the 3rd Dimensional Duality Mindset. This is a cycle that we will repeat over and over until we get it. Just like a hamster running on a wheel in its cage, it will not go anywhere until it decides to get off the wheel (and then escapes from the cage) ☺.

Think about the negative cycles you are experiencing in your life. Are you fighting them? If so, you must stop fighting them and come to a point of understanding and acceptance of the situation exactly as it is at this moment. Only then will you be able to open yourself up to living within the flow as it relates to that situation.

When you release and surrender your ego, you can start to feel the change that occurs within. You can feel the peace even before you see the outward manifestations.

The second step is allow yourself to feel the emotions, vibrations, energies of the desired outcome with the caveat that you will allow that something different or better to come instead of your stated desire. This is the insurance clause in case there is a difference between what your lower conscious self and Higher Self wants. Sometimes we get what we want to our own detriment if we allow our Lower Self’s desires to supersede what is truly best for us.

The third step is to give yourself time for meditation and relaxation. While thoughts that lead to effective actions can come at any time, your abilities to manifest and be where you need to be, contact who you need to contact and say what you need to say will only be enhanced by tapping into the deeper aspects of yourself. Your awareness expands and you start listening to the subtle directions that your Higher Self gives you.

Just as in the movie Avatar, there is a Higher Self who sees more data and has more connections than we can possibly imagine. Living in the flow means to let this Higher Self do the driving and as we do so, we are going to experience the journey in a way that is much easier, fun and fulfilling!

Enjoy the Ride!